Once I Wanted to Be – But Now I Am

I wrote this 3 1/2 years ago and thought I’d share it with you.

Once I wanted to be a missionary in a far away place telling people about Jesus and how very much He loved them.

Once I wanted to be just like my Aunt Winnie – beautiful, graceful, intelligent, funny, a good cook and a homemaker.

Once I wanted to be the owner of a Hallmark shop, stocking the shelves, working the cash register and being around pretty cards and stationery all day.

Once I wanted to be an interior designer, arranging furniture, filling rooms with beautiful things and making homes luxurious.

Once I wanted to be a professional musician, playing my oboe, being part of something big and have the ability to move people by the beauty and power of a symphony.

Once I wanted to be like Henry David Thoreau and live a simple, solitary life, quiet and thoughtful and surrounded by natural beauty.

But now I am the wife of a senior pastor of a large church in Omaha, Nebraska, telling people about Jesus and how very much He loves them!

But now I am the mother of two amazing teenagers – intelligent, beautiful, artistic, funny and loving.

But now I’m a cancer survivor times two, making it through each day just a bit stronger than the day before.

But now I am the author of two published children’s books hoping to write many more.

But now I have sold my oboe and have given away my piano and I listen to music on my ipod that is beautiful and powerful and moves me deeply.

But now I live a life that longs for simplicity still, and I fight to carve out time for stillness and quiet and I sit in my backyard surrounded with beautiful landscaping and drink deeply of God’s creation – in my own Walden minus the pond!

Proverbs 19:21 Many are the plans in a man’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.

K. Beauchamp 6/06

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3 Responses to “Once I Wanted to Be – But Now I Am”

  1. Nanci Says:

    Kris, I love your writings!! You ARE amazing!! You know…this title would be a great name for a new children’s book…”Once I thought I wanted to be, but now I think I want to be…” Children are always thinking… of new things they want to be or “pretending to be”….. You have such a wonderful gift of putting your hopes, dreams, and beliefs in words…what a gift! Keep writing…You are so able to bring ideas to life….Thanks for sharing them with us…

  2. Deanna Says:


    I love it!!! YOU are amazing my friend!!!! You never compromise, you always find a way to make your dreams come true, it always looks different than we thought, through the Lord’s eyes! But ….HE always knows the desires of our hearts! 🙂 What an encouragement you are to me today! Thank you, my friend!


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